"Be the change you wish to see in the world." - Ghandi
This statement has impacted me for years. Throughout my 12 year
struggle to reconcile my sexuality with my faith, one thing I kept close
to my heart was the hope that one day I could contribute to positive
change. Positive change in how the gay community views Christians... And
in how Christians view gay people. What a huge priviledge - and
responsibility - to have one foot in each camp.
Not only that
- although for obvious reasons this is a large focus in my life - but I
have always prayed to be a catalyst for positive-ness. That is why I
love this statement. That is why I got this tattoo.
Be - it is a verb. It implies action. Don't just wish it was better. Make it better.
The - implies singular. I do believe one person can make a huge change.
Change - another verb. This world can be pretty messed up - but the change starts with you. And it can start today.
What sort of legacy do I want to leave? Some paintings and drawings,
sure. But more than that - I want to pour into peoples lives. Our lives
are so incredibly short, and we only get one try. I want to be an
ambassador of hope. Of grace. Of compassion. Of joy. Of gratefulness. Of
love. As cheesy as that sounds.
I have been treated poorly, I
have been hurt deeply, I have been accused of a lot of horrible things
because I choose to live my life in total honesty - embracing being gay
as a Christian. People I love have written me off, and assumed a lot of
things about me because of this. This tattoo, wrapped around my right
wrist, reminds me every day - no matter what - to respond in love. To
extend that grace that has been extended to me, even when (especially
when) it doesn't make sense.
To be - the - change I so deeply wish to see around me.
What an honor that is.
